Resistance To Change - Blocks To Union

 I felt like I needed to write a blog post today, I do not feel great and have a stonking migraine - which a la Louise Hay can be linked to sexual fears, and resisting the flow of life. My neck hurts and cervical misalignment is a cause of migraines, on the physical side of things. So given the theme of the post I realise its a perfect reflection of the resistance I am feeling to change because I am terrified I am going to get more of the same abuse I had in the past in a relationship, even though I have no proof this will be the case in the Twin Flame Union. 

 When I asked what to blog about I got the reversed High Priestess and reversed Death. Both indicating resistance to change, holding onto delusions and illusions and needing to let go and trust intuition, develop connections with people and within ourselves and not to withdraw and hide (my default trauma state which is not great!).

So really the key here is acceptance of what IS, to allow what is true to show itself. To stop fighting.

However with the reversed Death card it indicated subconscious unaware resistance so on the surface you maybe doing all the thing towards union but feeling blocked and stagnant seeing no changes, not realising that this is why. Time to dig deep into this, and look at the what is causing this block - going inward intuitively.

So as I stated the karmic partner abuse is underpinning my fear of stepping into another relationship. It was physical, sexual, mental and emotional. It really messed me up. But I crave affection and love, and 15 years of single life focusing on healing and learning about the Twin Flame path has lead me to this point in my process. 

To rectify things, the card I pulled was The Lovers. Making a choice from the heart that the head can accept, choosing love and the Twin Flame over fear, and the Karmic. Emotionally by letting that fear hold me back it is like I am still with the karmic and he has control over me. Unintentionally choosing the karmic, but now by intentionally choosing the Twin Flame, we can let that go and move into LOVE, into UNION with ourselves and our Twin Flame.

 

 “Love requires surrender and surrender requires choice”

  S U R R E N D E R    T O   L O V E

Anyhoo - this is me saying “I surrender to love, I choose YOU my Twin Flame and I choose you NOW and FOREVER - and definitely over and instead of the karmic partner who I release fully now.”

Spangalactic Blessings

Bex